I explored a checkered theme in many paintings over a period of about fifteen years. As I was able to gradually unlock my feelings of disgust and rage and begin to heal, the checkered patterns become fragmented. Not only did they portray how abuse split my mind and the deep agony I felt, they also showed that one day I would heal sufficiently to forgive and rise like the sun, free from the cloud of grief and pain and darkness that had stopped me living to my highest potential.
By engaging in a creative activity (creative writing, painting, drawing, sculpture, creative dance, creative drama, and musical improvisation), it is possible to gain direct access to feelings which can uncover hidden messages within dreams. Creativity allows us to bypass left brain analysis and the defence mechanism of intellectualisation to reveal what the dream is saying.